Bandanna Rambles

[SquirrelFactor]

Kitty purring on the lap is like a heating pad and chair vibrator at the same time, save it is allot softer and more personabable.

[steven eugene squirrel]

bandanna why do you have to live so far away?
i just googled to find how far you might be when we were in madison,wi. it said it would take one day and seven hours to get there. if you ever get out this way to your nephew...... we will have to find a way to meet up.

or if i can ever save some money i will get in a big box and mail myself to you.

[Bandanna]

i've often wanted to ship myself.. i even spoke to the guy about it.. he say the cost would be prohibitive. darn. we'd love you anytime. there's enough in nw that i'm sure it'd draw you and hubby.

big pile of test results tuesday.... will share the ups and/or downs.

[steven eugene squirrel]

God Bless you little one. Will be checking in on and off all week from the hotel.

[Midnight]

Your going to be fine..We want have it any other way..

[steven eugene squirrel]

okay bandanna, what are the results?

[Bandanna]

i have zero estrogen. my adrenals have packed up bag and baggage and moved to europe and are considering australia... so i've got a prescription for estrogen and pregesterine that you rumb on like lotion. and she's holding some other meds at counter for me... for the adrenals, anxiety, sleep, the osteo until i can afford to buy them... because this is "supplements" instead of true prescriptions, even though they are script strength, insurance won't pay... but this is all supposted to regulate my moods so i am not sad/depressed/stressed and/or suicidal at bad moments... and give me energy and help me sleep without the threat of ambien.. i took one of those the other night and completely blacked out. i let cooper outdoors. then my angry dh and my hysterical son and me spent half the night searcing for him.. i guess i am the one found him and got himsafe.. but i remember NONE of this. my dh told me he was sorry for being so mad the next morning and i had no idea what he was talking about until danny filled me in on the nights hijinks... and then i cried for two days because if anything bad ever happened to one of my critters because of me.. i'd never forgive myself. the whole situation horrifies me. so... sorry i didn't write sooner my loves.. but i've been plumb exhausted all day cause i don't sleep at night. can't wait to be able to get these supplements.

ses hope you are having fun on your jaunt.. mid, i miss you, lets talk soon K?

[Midnight]

If you have no estrogen thats why your so tried..Bless your heart..I could have told you about that sleeping pill thats why I don't take it any more..
I will have you in my prayers..We will talk soon..

[steven eugene squirrel]

take care and let us know if we can do anything to help.

[Bandanna]

mid, ses, SF thank you. i'm just a big muddled mess right now.. trying to figure out all manner of things... i'm in this big brain fog right now... i made this horrible banking error that i'm trying to fix.. never feel quite right..can't sleep nor keep food down unless i do bits here and there... it runs right thru me. my nerves are shot and i feel like a complete waste of plasma.

so you guys... you along with my boys, family and a few other friends.. keep me afloat. and once i figure out how anbd when to use all these meds.. hopefully i will be back to me in a good way. peewee says so.